I think a lot of us had high hopes for 2020…the start of a new year, a new decade full of promise and then…..well, at the very least this year will go down as one for the record books, won’t it?! Absolutely insane.
The year started off pretty brutally for me as I dealt with difficult news that dragged through to Valentine’s Day and left me a strange mix of exhausted and empty. A month later we were graced with a visit from Covid…the guest that has, apparently, overstayed its welcome….and on May 25th, my birthday, we got slapped in the face by a grotesque display of the systemic issues our country suffers from.
What. A. Year.
…and yet as cliche as it may sound, it is times like this that give us the opportunity to rise from the ashes. Like the proverbial Phoenix.
I have sat at a table with Resentment, Anger, Anxiety, and Sadness for the past few months….visitors I have had stop by sporadically over the past five years, but which, this time, have all but actually moved-in. It has taken all I have to get up from that table and force myself to remember that adversity creates opportunities if you let it.
I have watched my kids go through a landslide of emotions as they were dismissed from school in early March. Forced into a quarantine keeping them away from beloved friends and teachers. As of today, there is no prospect they will go back to school in the fall….and yet….there are positives to this.
I have gotten to spend countless hours speaking to them about the state of the world, how to critically think, how to look outside the narrative and I see the wheels turning and the lights shining bright in their pubescent brains.
My son and our dog have created an even deeper bond than ever before…brothers who enjoy long walks together twice a day. This pup who always tugs at the leash when I take him out, is the perfect little four-legged gentleman when my son takes him out. It’s endearing and amazing to watch the bond grow between those two.
My daughter and one of her original best friends from Portland started writing each other actual snail mail letters and have rekindled their friendship in such a special way. She’s also taken to cleaning and organizing the house with me and might just end up being an interior decorator.
…..and this health nut mom has gotten to feed her kids extra healthy good stuff for breakfast, lunch, and dinner with no interruptions from the junk they’d get at school. A throwback to when they were little and I still had full control of their diets…and I’m not gonna lie….I love that! I’ve also had a chance to continue learning more about immune support and how what we put in and on our bodies can and will dictate our health now and in the future.
Harder to come to terms with has been the fact that after two and a half years of testing, and creating relationships with lead teachers and the school district, I lost a job that I absolutely adored due to the pandemic and school closures. With all of the budget cuts and the plans for “re-opening” school in the fall, there is no prospect for me to return to work if I stay in California.
So….I’ve forced myself back into the waters of self-discovery.
For the past year, I’ve watched a woman I truly admire create an amazing life for herself. I met her ages ago when we were still kids shooting beer and car commercials here in LA. She’s a mom of two now like me…and yet has created something so amazing doing what she loves online.
She introduced me to an online space that teaches you how to create your personal brand, how to tap into multiple income streams, and how to achieve what can all too often seem like the impossible….freedom.
Realizing that I cannot depend on a brick and mortar way to create an income, I started to really listen to her message and, well, that’s why I’m here now…relaunching Adulthood Rewired.
I started this blog three years ago as a space to share what I know, have learned, and love. I did not, however, know HOW to properly share outside of writing content. Over the past few months I’ve been learning ALL the HOWS while also delving into a lot of personal growth exercises and what my money story is.
This platform I’ve been spending my empty hours on has taught me that my blog can be so much more than just a little online journal that only a handful of people read. I have the tools I need now…and these are tools ANYONE can use to create a life of purpose using whatever talents or messages they may have.
So, while this year has been rough…very…..it’s also led me down a path of growth, learning, and development that I may never have gone down had adversity not pushed in me that direction.
I’m still not floating around happily on fairy wings…..but what I am learning has completely shifted my perspective and taught me so much. All things that I clearly needed to learn in order to do what I love in a truly effective way.
It’s given me hope that I can make a life for my family that is not completely dependent on the whims of mayors, governors, political parties, or whatever other powers that be.
They get to do what they want while mandating things for us…so now I am getting ready to do what I want. This does, however, mean that I need to break through being an introvert. I have to push past limitations I have set for myself since childhood…but that’s growth, isn’t it?
So…with the education and inspiration I have gained from this amazing platform I was introduced to….I’m getting ready to Rewire my Adulthood at full tilt.
Get ready to read and hear more about all the things I love: parenting, healthy living, healthy aging, supplements, essential oils, relationships…and my favorite….random musings. Anything and everything that I have learned on this crazy ride we call life…
I hope I can inspire in the way my friend inspired me. Your life is yours….but we so often forget how to take the reins.
And yes….I am nervous and excited and terrified and giddy….but that’s the way we all felt right before getting on the craziest, fastest roller coaster at the theme park ride as kids, right? Remember the feeling afterwards? Even if you did get nauseous a little….it still felt triumphant!
That feeling.
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